Thank you so much everyone.

Just writing it out and knowing that, yes, it was scary and, yes, I should have reacted as strongly as I did helped.

Then to have the validation you all have given me has helped immensely.

I think some of the bigger issues don't resolve with me quickly enough because I don't have a clear view of it. How can one deal with and place something that's not viewed clearly? That's where I was.

It now seems to be viewed very clearly, thanks to your help, and I see it for what it was but most importantly...for what it *was*, not is and hasn't been since.

Thank you again, so much.

KD