> I haven't SI'ed since that session in which I told him that I broke the contract...

That is great! I'm a bit wary of saying that... I know I certainly had mixed feelings around the time when I was stopping SI'ing.. Was very ambivalent about whether it was a good thing or not...

I do think that there is something to the idea that people respond to the way we reinforce them... But I also think that there is something to the idea that people are able to transcend reinforcement histories somewhat by rational reflection and deliberation.

I guess it is up to us whether we do (whether we can) use events for good or for ill. I am happy about the reduction in self-harm, though. Mostly because... A while after stopping (quite a while, typically) people say they feel better that they stopped and that they are glad they have. Hang in there...