((( MissC ))) You work so hard in your therapy, in session and out.

I journal, not daily, but often. Sometimes to process a session, sometimes to capture a session so I won't forget, sometimes to find relief from something I'm feeling. I reach for my journal at night too, for that time right before falling asleep can produce some interesting thoughts.
At work, many things come to mind and I usually come home with a sticky note or two about those thoughts. For whatever reason I seem to think better when I'm busy with my mundance and monotonous job; maybe my defences are down.
And if I don't write these thoughts down, they run away and hide.

I've tried to bring these things to therapy and sometimes I have, but mostly I don't. Or I get a very small bit if out there, then therapy takes off as therapy does.

It used to really bother me that I couldn't bring it all to therapy. I felt like I was losing time, losing opportunities; that I wouldn't be able to come back to these things. It felt like failure, but as time has gone on I realize that it's okay. Sometimes these areas are separate and I do think it's all part of the same process... of self-discovery. So, I let it be.

There are times when I think something is important or feels immediate and I want to be sure I can find the courage to talk about it, so I will write down just one or two words on a sticky note and carry that in my hand or my pocket where I can reach in and touch it and feel the prompt and the self encouragement it is intended to be.

I think and write much more than I talk. Accepting that has been helpful. Still frustrating but helpful. The process of choosing from all of this when the session begins is also interesting to notice. Gee I thought I wanted to talk about X and yet I began with Y. Defense? Reisistance? Hard to tell. Even when I throw something in out of the blue in the middle of a session it is curious.

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The feeling state comes out in session.


</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> I think it's great that you can get to the feeling state in session. Is it because it feels safe there?