Like two or three weeks ago i decided to quit my effexor cold turkey and smoke pot when i get really down/anxious. Wasnt fantastic to start out but the last week or so ive noticed positive results. My downs that used to last up to two weeks now usually dont outlast the day. My better moods now seem to be the ones in control and i consider it a good thing. Things that would happen here such as the landlord deciding to come over everyday for hours on end that would put me in a panic->anger->depression cycle now seem to only keep me for 24 hours usually. Dont get me wrong i still panic, i still get pissed and i still get depressed but now it moves alot faster. My moods are more fluid. They dont get stuck nearly as often and when they do they work free.

Im sure most people would disagree with the choice i made but if it works for me then it works. My girlfriend has even noticed my moods have been much better lately. I feel so much better but somewhere the brainwashing of illicit drugs=bad still is in my mind. I dont want the good to end but im a lil paranoid that somehow im digging a hole even tho it feels like im forming a mountain.