Wow - i resonate with a lot of what Miss and Echoes have brought up - as well as the being raise to not feel, and like chaotic said, I tried for years to keep it out of rational thought. These days, the more i try to hold it back, the more it poors out. I don't like that the pendulm has swung into the emotional side - which leaves me feeling weak, pathetic, and child-like. but maybe if i stay in the process, the pendlum (which i clearly can't spell today) will swing back and finally find center.
kiya