yes - that does make sense, mouse. i like the reading idea. i also do a lot of reading - but for me it has always been an escape. i am glad you are connected to t in that way.

i just called t's voicemail last night (soooo good to hear her funny, scratchy voice) and told her i am thinking about cancelling the 2 sessions in august because it is too hard to do this every other thing. i told her i'd think on it... but that i just may not be able to do it. she is totally out of phone range (in s. america) and won't even get the message til monday or tuesday. my appointment would be wed night. i am waivering. i don't like this descision i have to make. and i don't like not being able to make it.