well.. i am seeing a lot of good ideas about finances and talking to T about this. i think you know in your head (not your heart) the logical steps to take.. you know that this doesn't have to mean ending therapy with this T, but yeah, it probably does mean painful therapy vacation. You know about abandonment fears.. i could be wrong, but it sounds like you're afraid of losing him so you kick yourself out first. You're also extremely smart and you do have the ability to make change and control the variables. Please see the strength you have, and the resources. i'd hate to see you rob yourself of something most people never get. Other T's won't be THIS T... and to be honest, i think you'd burn a bunch of money and be in a very unhappy state. i think it would be better spent to just take the break, make arrangements with T for dealing with the money, talk to the other people in your life about help with managing money.



sending much love