"This is what I have been trying to achieve by my repetitive assertions of my neediness."

Soli - you just described (tho more intellectually than I ever could) the dynamic playing between MD and I right now. I needed that. T totally gets this area.... but MD -nope. and i do feel like I am being rejected by her just by trying to have needs met - needs that T thinks should be met with ease. And thus, the parts switched, and (like you SIing at t's) started drinking. The one thing I am soooooooooo not allowed and fear I will get kicked for on Monday if i tell her.
thanks for posting that.
kiya