Well, I spoke to my Dr and received note indicating I was under treatment since day one, etc.... So I gave it to the gal in the HR department and had a confidential chat with her. So it seems they did NOT take in consideration that I might be having some "health issues" at all. Just jumped the gun and wrote me up. So I guess my direct supervisor feels bad now, and wanted to speak to me, but did not do so all week. I told her I did not want to share this info with them previously, as I felt uncomfortable doing so and felt like my direct supervisor would not understand at all.

So as it works out...I am leaving this job soon anyhow. My former boss wants me to come back to work for him now...which is closer to home, and with the same salary & benefits. So....this ended up working out for me, which I find unbelievable still.

I am still working on my depression issues and trying different meds to see what works for me...so far nothing works yet. They all make me feel either wired, tired, sluggish, weird or foggy.

Most of my depression is coming from a bad breakup with a boyfriend who was manipulative, a liar, and emotionally abusive. So I am trying to get over it the best I can, and move on. Plus I had issues from my previous divorce over a year ago; a delayed reaction as such; and family issues with my dementia mother. So I guess I just kinda had a meltdown. Fortunately, I been going to a therapist for a while, which probably helped in the long run....but I still don't feel very good about anything. I am still deeply greiving over the loss of the boyfriend, although I know he was "toxic" to me. I have never had such a terrible hard time letting someone go....I just loved him too much, and he knew it and took full advantage of it. I have never had any man use me in this way in my life, and I guess I am just taking it too hard. I am over 50 now..which I think makes me feel like there is "no other man" who will find me attractive and want to be with me either.....and it is hard to find someone in this age demographic. I need to feel more comfortable about being alone and not with a man in my life. I always had a man around since my late 20's, and now think I can't function without one in my life. So I have a lot to work on in the coming months.......

Well, thanks for listening.....