I also have another reason for wanting to do it. When I go to see my surgeon in September I am hoping for him to be able to do my next round of surgeries and I know he won't do them if I am smoking. So I want to be able to be honest this time when I see him and be able to tell him no I'm not smoking.

I am trying to figure out what to do with the smokes I do have as if I had something to do with the ones I have now I'd just get rid of them but can't bring myself to just throw them away. I for some reason just can't do it.

Jbug