He was giving you a hug. And I am too. I am so sorry for your loss. The pain must feel intolerable.

You are going to have to keep just putting one foot in front of the other and make it through each day. Keep your love for him and all your wonderful memories of him close in your heart. Could you perhaps work on making a scrap book of all your photos? Or write down all your memories?

I can't promise even time will make it better. The ache remains, I'm afraid.
Take good care of yourself.
Love,
Okie