<font color="purple">wasnt really sure where to put this and mainly its just a ramble... lately I have been feeling very lost... lost in myself, lost in the others, lost in my world... I feel like I am not really here, like I am in a robiotic state, going thru the motions of life... emotions are jumbled, cant sort them, but at the same time feel kinda emotionless.... what's real and what isnt... feeling like every part of me is separate... both physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually.... I want to sleep... which may be a contributing factor b/c I have not been sleeping well for about a month now... the nightmares stopped, which is good... feeling withdrawn and detached... but not sad or happy... not content and not crazed.. I just dont know... almost wish one of the others would come to the forefront and put some meaning or something into this empty shell.... </font>