I don't have the words for you but I am really sorry you are going thru this. I think you knew in your heart though when you started this it would happen. right now the best thing you can do is to stop the affair for your childrens sake. they are the only concern at this point. or should be. the other man has nothing really to offer if you think about it hon. I am not saying stay in your marriage if it is a bad one either. the children at number 1!