I relate to what you're saying. I don't have any answers, unfortunately. Yes, animals do love you unconditionally...I do not have pets now (apartment rule is "no pets"), but I had dogs growing up. My boyfriend has a cat who seems to love me. I love both dogs and cats, and animals do not judge you, or come to you only when they want something from you. They are not two-faced liars whose true colors only come out when you have a crisis.