Always i was told not to tell people what was going on at home, never to share my feelings with anyone.
As long as I can remember I kept my feelings to myself and just got on with looking after my mum and dad and being their shoulder to cry on.
Things have happened to me that have caused so much pain inside. But i don't know how to share it with others.
I'm so good at covering everything up and pretending all is ok. But 3 years ago i broke down couldn't take anymore of the pain that was throbbing inside.
Since then i haven't stopped being miserable, why did i ever bother to let out my feelings. I feel so much worse now.
The flow of feelings just can't be stopped and i can't control them anymore. I'm feeling low again i let down most people that i know. I feel so not worthy enough around other people.
And i'm so used to bottling things up that although the tears are always flowing i just can't talk to people about it. I want to talk but i just can't
Why can't i just talk to someone i'm such a failure of life