Lenny: It seems more dofficult at home.. whereas at work, there are those things that I have to get done ... and I do.. and I do it well ... and then I strive to get a little extra done too.. and I feel good about being able to do a good job, being productive, and being an asset to the company and my co-workers.. I feel I have purpose and make a difference there...still disconnected from it...

At home... is where the mind of emptiness sets in... I reflect and try to connect with myself and others on a more personal and deeper level than at work it just isnt happening...

I did enjoy a hot bubble bath and did some poetry writing... I set out to clean out a bedroom for renovation and did more than I anticipated...

wanttoheal: on ocassion I take melatone (sp?) it helps me get a better night sleep for the few hours that I am able to, not as restless and startely...

(((lenny))) and (((wanttoheal))) thank you for your words of wisdom and support... it helps to know people are out there that understand and care...