((((((((((((((((((( Silversparrow ))))))))))))))))))))))

Sweetheart....it is most definitely normal to feel the sorrow you are feeling. You are grieving for a friendship and a friend and what it used to be and what "it could have been". While he has chosen a path that is unhealthy and you have chosen to distance yourself, it doesn't mean that you don't care about him. In time hon, your pain will ease over this, as you ease through each day and work through the feelings.

Now, one thing I want to say about your strength, or as you put it, your weakness - I see absolutely NO weakness in you when you CHOOSE to do good self care and to make choices that are healthier for you! That my dear is a huge strength....and a difficult one at times I am sure. Our lives are about choosing things....and you are making a great decision in distancing yourself from those who would bring you down. Yes ma'am......that is strength!

Life is strange sometimes and the amount of folks we say goodbye to can feel overwhelming. For myself, I try to remember that people come into my life for a reason and they go out of my life for a reason. We are not always meant to have lifelong relationships with everyone we care about. It is how our lives revolve together and seperately. I do understand that for some of us, that kind of change is hard to accept and deal with. Don't forget that with each person who touches your life and has helped you in some way, you continue with them in your heart forever....they are always with you


sabby