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I don't know if you're addicted to sex in the normal sense. I know some people after being abused (like rape) will repeat the behaviour because they feel that's all they deserve... or they do it because it's familiar, or for whatever reason like that.

I don't know if it's really an addiction though... do you know why you go back to abusive partners? What about the emotions behind the times you have sex with a person? Do you do it because you enjoy it, or because of another reason?

I think therapy could be very useful for you, at the very least to heal and move past your experience of being raped.

I can understand how embarassing it would be to talk about (I'm looking into sexual abuse counselling for myself at the moment) ... but if your behaviour isn't something you enjoy or you want to change what's currently happening... then sometimes therapy is the only real way to do it. You can get a woman T to deal with it though ... you don't even have to mention it as the issue bringing you into counselling in the beginning ... do it at your own pace, and wait until you trust a T.