Violet, I don't know what happened to you, but if something hurt you, that was not of God. It is unfortunate that people have done evil things and said it was in the name of God.

It is also very unfortunate, but although this was exactly the kind of question that some of us asked for this forum because we saw a need for a safe place to talk about issues like this, the current mind set of this forum is such to cripple our ability to talk about questions like that much.

You are very welcome to PM me if you would like to talk about what happened to you, or if you would like more of an answer than I am permitted to post here.

I hope I am allowed to say that God still loves you and wants to help you. If you pray for comfort and understanding, and listen for His answer, you will feel that love. Keep looking for answers, and when you find something that feels good to you, pray and ask if it is right. If it is, you will get an answer.

I don't know if it will answer your question or not, but I have a blog entry that talks about healing from abuse. Maybe some of it will apply:
http://rapunzel.psychcentral.net/200...ral-conference