O would appreciate anyones comment or info!!

I have been on Lexapro for 5 months for TMJ (although REALLY the doctor as well as myself both knew I needed it for its real reasons as well but we were hoping the anti anxiety [art may help calm my TMJ.

Anyway, it didn't help. It didn't help my depression or anxiety either. Suddenly I gained a pants size (which to me is the end of the world). I haven't eaten any different so I assume its the meds. Also, my sex drive went away. I'm 25 years old, in my head, I'm supposed to want it all the time. I don't want it and I can barely get in the mood. Found out that's probably another side effect.

So anyway, I stopped it about a week ago and the last 3 days have been HELL! I feel faint, I have trouble breathing/catching my breath. My heart starts racing if I do anything even go from sitting to stand up.
I'm so ridiculously annoyed and irritable that I broke down in the middle of the street and in the car yesterday because everything was annoying me so badly I involuntaily cried.

Apparently I'm back to my old ways of hurting myself too and my bf keeps using this against me saying go back on your medication... as if something that is bothering me ISN'T really bothering me because I stopped taking meds I "should" be on and so Im acting crazy. Why can't I feel the way I feel. Why can't anything I say or do be taken seriously?!

Anyone know how long this is going to last..the withdrawals. I can't handle this. I'm going to be a monster to everyone around me when I don't mean to be. No one will take me seriosuly when I'm for real.