Hang in there and it will get better! This is the place to come and talk where there are people who understand how you feel. I can talk to my sister when I need to, and my daughter, but not my brother or my parents. My brother still lets my parents control too much of his life, even though they helped cause his breakdown a few years ago. My mother and father are so very critical of everyone and just aren't there mentally to talk to. Maybe your sister has never had these kind of problems, so she really doesn't understand. I had a therapist tell me to write it all down on paper and keep a journal. It really helped me a lot. Talk to us all here and write it down!! See if it makes a difference. We all love you and understand!!!!