Hi everyone.
Do you ever find yourself just mad for no real reason??
Well that's me today. This morning I woke up and my five year old and me made pancakes together. She made me one all by herself so I ate it and felt ok about it. Then I weighed myself (which I do all day long) and I've been nauseated and grumpy as hell since. I don't know what's wrong with me. It just seems like nothing goes the way I want or plan it to. I find myself wanting to be at work all the time because there I'm in control and even if there is chaos (I'm an EMT) I'm in control of it. I know I'm not articulating very well, I'm just very frustrated and feeling disgusting. It's getting harder and harder, I feel like I'm losing my grip. I want to just stop eating and I don't know exactly how that will help other than making the #s on the scale get lower, but I feel like if I don't eat I'll have a handle on the rest of my life.