Hun, I'm sorry that you're having to suffer like this. After years of living with this kind of abuse it tends to become the norm, and breaking away from your norm can be a scarry thing. My best advise is to get out now. Stay with family or friends until you can get back on your feet. I know we don't know each other yet but I want you to know that no one EVER deserves this kind of treatment... not ever. It makes me sick that this kind of thing happens. Is there anyone you can stay with? You need to have a place that's safe where you can start to heal from everything you're had to endure. Keep us posted. The people in this community are such wonderful people and we'll support you every step of the way in any way we can. Take good care of yourself and be safe. My heart and prayers go out to you.

ryan