(((((((((Kiya)))))))))))))))
WOOT!

for you and FOUR gold stars!
I hope moving out and all that stuff works out for you, I understand how sometimes living with families and some others is really not a good thing for us. So good for you for taking a positive self-care step!
You are not betraying your mother. It might seem like that, and some people can manipulate situations to make themselves look more hurt or victimized than they really are. Your mom might not like whats going to happen, but it's good for you - and that's what parents are supposed to do - let good things happen for their kids. Even if it hurts them a bit in the process. Sorry your mom is clingy ... sometimes parents are like that. (Empty nest syndrome!) Sometimes parents need kids around to boss around or to "live through" ... and it probably scares your mom, but once again - don't feel too bad, because you're responsible for taking care of yourself first!
PS. If my MD had ever been that "grabby" to see my SI I'd have totally FREAKED! Yikes. Good job on not drinking and the Lexapro dosage increase - hope it works for ya!