Thank you splitimage. I am fine in all of this. My sister is 31 and has been in and out of rehab since she was 17. I have gone through all of the stages. I've worried for her, I've cried for her, I've hated her, I've mourned for her, I've felt nothing for her and now I just want to support her for my Mom. I have emotionally detached myself from my sister. I don't wish her any ill will. I see how my sisters problems distresses my Mom. If I am mad at my sister, it will upset my Mom more. My Mom always gets so hopeful for her recovery. She always says "this time is different". It's sad because I can see her unconditional love for her and how much these two screw ups for siblings I have keep hurting my Mom. It's kind of like I'm here for my sister, for my Mom. If that makes any sense.

I don't live with my parents I and my husband live in our own house with our three kids. I, my brother and sisters go to my moms every weekend. We are a very close family. When my sister falls off the wagon and I know that there could be drugs at my Moms house, I, nor my other sisters will go there until she leaves. And that will force my Mom to kick her out. It's hard to force my Mom to make such a move, but we are not going to put our children in jeopardy and my Mom understands that.

But as for this Sunday; the train station is on my way to my Moms, so I was picking my sister up for her.

Thank you splitimage and raceka for your replies and support.