Discordia,

All I know of you so far is what you have posted here. But in those few sentences I can recognize a lot of cognitive distortions. If you look in the psychotherapy forum at the very top, there is a post about cognitive distortions and how they make things look terrible and awful and hopeless. But they are overgeneralizations and they discount the good things and make the world and you look much worse than reality. Surely if you really look at yourself you could find some good too. There must be something that you can do right and somebody who cares about you. I hope that you will give us the chance to get to know you.

And I know that this doesn't fix it. I can really relate to those feelings and to not knowing who you even are. That just means it's time to find out who you are and what you want to do with your life. Things won't always be this bad. Trust me, ok?