talking to myself. have lots of thoughts right now pacing around my head like the giant in jack and the beanstalk .... ot's utter chaos in my head. Like when you're in a party and lots of peole are rushing around, the musics just that bit too loud and people are yelling over it. The noise is crippling me ..... so much to remember, too much to do. Buffalo are stampeding through. I never felt this way maybe the antibiotics are mixing with the anti anxietys and everything else i take for this n that .... i tried speed once when i was younger .... that's what it feels like .... i'm talking to myself aren't i because noone answers all the time .....

maybe i should go to bed ..... then i#ll feel guilty ut i have done the laundry and the kitchen. what should i do ... i tried to call Nina but she wouldnt answer and she#s upset ....

why is it so hard everything .... am i in the right place?

sorry