((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( purplebutterfly ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
I know that feeling.
Can you look at the sticky on here with the lists of things to do instead of cutting? Maybe there is something there that will help.
I know it's SO hard to resist the urge....but maybe if you look at the list, and give yourself a little time to ride this wave, it will pass?

Please be safe.