I think I wrote the other week about how T said she was sitting with me in the silence and I just nodded NO! and continue to nod for quite a while. Well yesterday as its the last but one session before the summer break, I asked her what the point in coming was, just to sit in silence and T said, well that fact we're both here together. I felt the discomfort inside raging and I said, Look I dont get this sitting together lark, I dont get this silence being somethign we do together, T said what do you feel is happening in the silence? do you feel as if I'm withdrawing or your withdrawing? I said, no none of that, I, I, I want you to reach out to me and you don't. T then said, "I'm saying the silences are ok, but your experiencing them like you did with your mother when you were left alone for hours as a baby and wanting your mother to reach out to you?" and I then felt she had got it, I nodded YES for ages after that then bit my lip because I wanted to cry, felt she had finally been gentle with me and not forced me to see something a different way...the session was over by then and I've carried her understanding me about the silences as a comforter!..she gets me, she won't leave me sitting in agony now, she knows how painful it is for me!! I've got 1 more session tomorrow then thats it for 4weeks...but she knows now.