Everything hurts...
I am nothing, it's something I've been telling myself since I was 13 years old, you think I would get it by now.
I don't have any energy anymore...
My moods change constantly, I'm up I'm down
It took me 30 minutes to get out of bed, I just keep staring at the hole in my wall, the one I caused because I got angry..and I can't rember why I got angry but I know it was triggered by my time confusion and memory issues.
While I was staring at the hole in my wall I was slammed with this overwhelming of worthlessness, of sadness, of guilt.
I don't understand any of this anymore, all I want to do is cry and scream.
But here in the next thirty minutes I'll feel something entirely diffrent..
Someone help me understand...