All I want to do is go into this second appointment with my new T and tell her how bad I am. I have too many diagnoses. I think I'm a liar. I've done bad things. Once she gets to know me she won't like me. I'm boring. Blah, blah, blah. I hate pushing people away before they can even get close.

I also want to go in today and set all the ground rules so I can know whether I'm doing things right or not.

Should be an interesting session. I think I'll bring my art stuff with me today to my session. I like my pencils more than the ones she has. Will that insult her? Why would I be willing to do that? Hmmmm...

Arrrggghhhh!