((((((((Sannah))))))) ((((((((Christina))))))) (((((((DOWNINNATTICK)))))
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Thank you all for your responses they mean so much..I don't know how I would deal without ya'lls support and understanding, feeling a bit calmer now, keep switching back and forth between moods, I've just been trying to keep myself busy until time to go to work, which it is almost time to go to work, I have such a perfected mask for the public, happy carefree laughing, if only I could really feel that way with out it being a lie, those feelings are so distant..

I keep trying to get into the doctor, but I can't get an answer, my parents told me I was going to the doctor wether I like it or not and that they personal would take me even if I was kicking and screaming, they said they would take matters into their own hands if I didn't make an appointment by the end of the week....

I'm just so lost, I use to have a map but I lost it somewhere I had all the answers at onepoint, I was better all on my own, what happend??
All it took was a pile of repressed memories brought on by one trigger...that is all it took one little trigger back in January and I lost it all...