This is an interesting question because I feel like I have two different answers that completely confilict.

Growing up I can remember being really picked on and feeling really insecure amongst some of my peers. Wanting to fit in. As I got older ...in my teens and up as I did fit in I became even more insecure, but appeared incredibly strong. I appeared to be an outgoing, life of the party, smart and pretty young woman, but on the inside I felt like I couldn't measure up.

Especially to the people that seemed to matter and the interesting thing all during that time I would sometimes become rebelious against this "low self esteem battle" and who I felt was making me feel that way.

Today, I'm more painfully insecure then ever to the point that I couldn't even do certain things and then when I'm more mentally stronger, I would be more inclined to get irritated and say "F*** it in my head and push to do something and actually get irritated.

Sorry this is so long winded, but you tell me?...lol