if it is any comfort to you, any hope - I felt that way once.

everything was taken away from me - e v e r y t h i n g

I was devastated beyond belief, disoriented, I was lower than anything, and no one would help me - I still remember the hang-ups of the telephones, the slammed doors in my face by my mother, you name it -

I truly thought I was going to die from the pain.

therapy is helpful, and it brought perspective to me, and little by little i crawled again, then walked - this time completely on my own ... so that could never happen to me again - EVER.

worse days of my life.

I am ill now, as you probably heard, and to tell you the truth, it's nothing compared to those dark, lonely, unfair, devastaing days ... and I face death again, but I'm better off than back then.

I had many good years before this year!

That is my hope for you - that you make it out of this, that you find a real life support group, and a Dr. that cares - to turn your head around.

you - nobody here - deserves to suffer like this.

I understand it.

it's traumatizing.

BUT

it can get relieved, thru help ... get help my friend.

more is available today than in my day - if only I had contact with this place back then, boy - it would have expedited my hardships - because I wanted to feel relieved - the pain was excrutiating!!!!!

you will get better -it's a process, but it will move along faster with some help.

love,

xoxoxoxoxoxxoxoox