Hi purple,
I have the super glue to put yourself back together, let out your pain and let us know what we can do, it sucks to feel like you've gone to pieces. Try to find a way to release some of your pain by writing it down in a journal, or write it as a letter then burning it to release the pain in the flames, I don't know if that will help but it could hurt.

You are surrounded by friends and never alone, lets put the pieces back one at a time and take baby steps to healing your heart and mind.