LMo... all right I'll bag the Little Red Dancing Guy... time for a change anyway. Weird that I chose this one though as the watching the Yankees was something that my ex girlfriend and I did together... sigh.

You know what's weird? I spent some time actually writing down things that happened to me ove the past 7 years. I have gone through 2 divorces, lost 2 other relationships, had 5 jobs (laid off once/fired twice/left once on myown), had my home foreclosed, car repossessed, been to four therapists, one psychiatrist, hospitalized once. Amazing when I wrote it all down. Not just what I have been through but how long it has been. I realize how much I missed with my kids. How selfish I was. How self destrutive I have been over that time. And how much I have been spinning my wheels. Not really accomplishing anything or moving forward. I hung in there through the hardest of times for my kids. I honestly don't know how much more I can't do this. I really don't.