I dont really know how to do this, im still learning...not very techie lol.

but i understand I feel the same way. its tough to let people know whats going on in your life to offer to help. thats why i joined this. I dont have the guts to talk to the people around me. I fear they wont understand at all, or theyll just send me somewhere that wont do any good. and on top of that, blame themselves and feel bad. But I have plans to fix everything one day. Right now Im just on hold. I think it depends on your situation for picking up the broken peices and starting over. I guess then the trick would be to be confident enough to do that. If you can find someone who you can trust, you should slowly try to open up to them. Its the only way that you can understand yourself completely.