I'm afraid that what part of me believes isn't what ME believes and so I'm forced to live with what she says. Not really afraid to say what I want just afraid to say what I don't want. Afraid to say with the mind of my very MEAN part. I don't know how to stop it unless I say nothing sometimes works but inside I feel like I'm going to blow up. After keeping it all in I'm thinking death is the only answer cause I've made such a mess of my life. Ya know, Or no? Heehee