Its good to hear you Sophia. I say that (although its a bit ironic) in sincerity because I understand and I relate to what you're experiencing, tho I do have hearing,

I have a disorder and one of the names for it is 'the self in exile disorder'. In the experience of this, I also on one form or other withdraw from the external world of real people and get really intense and addicted to relationships --- in another way, can be online, can be in my head, its like my emotional investment goes here instead of the real world. But theres more, this has an energy of its own wich takes over, and as you say, it can take over and make basic needs just irrelevant or even like you dont want them.

There is lots of hope, and I do by now have a lot of understanding of this. and I have made some progress at getting better.

If you would like pm me, and maybe I can help

riverx