My family I know loves and cares for me, and they have thier ways of showing it, its feeling it that I have issues with and beleiveing its geniune... I dont know... I just want some moments where its all about me.... with my parenst they have a lot of guilt b/c of the surroundings I was raised in and exposed too... maybe its the feeling of being taken cared of is what I am yearning.... defianetly not getting the emotional connection or needs met... IDK what I am trying to say or how to explain...

I thank you all for your responses... I appreciate all the input... (((((((((((eveyone)))))))))