(((((((((((((((WTF)))))))))))))))

Oh sweety, I am so sorry your feeling this way. I don't know if I can be of much comfort to you now as I am feeling similar to how you are feeling. All I can tell you is that your not alone. I try to look ahead for something brighter and better. I look to my children to give me strength. They are the reason that I go on.
I hope that you can find that strength in something close to you.
I am here if you need, as we all are. Take care and please let me know how you are doing.