((((((((((((((MissCharlette))))))))))))))
*I* was nearly crying!!! =(

It is so terribly hard. Honestly last week i was afraid to go to the clinic monday - visioning everyone crying that T's plane had gone down and she was gone forever and ever. It does feel like total abandonment, like they only exist because we see them every time. Like you, I started preparing way in advance for the absense - but it really only made things worse. Much Much worse. Now that I have consented to go tonight, and deal with the loss again tomorrow, some how that is better than the week of worry and 2 weeks w/o t.
(tomorrow, remind me i said this).
I do hope you can give yourself permission to miss him - and mabye even permission to fantasize GOOD, POSITIVE fun things about T's vacation.
I'm here if you want to chat or PM.
kiya