Hi there. It sounds like what's wrong with you is that you're overwhelmed with depression and you have plenty of reasons to be. Give yourself time to grieve for the losses you've had before worrying about meeting someone else. Take care of yourself by doing some of the things you used to enjoy. In time, you'll enjoy them again and that will put a smile on your face. When you have healed you will attract others to you with that smile. I wish you the best. (((((((hugs)))))))