I can totally relate to this.

I'm usually like a walking self-help book. I thrive on helping others. I used to be much more good at it then I am now. The difference now though is that because I've become so depressed and sick I've become more "numb" and my brain isn't working so well. I've become to withdrawn from people. Just not functioning at all.

Normally though it would be easier for me to focus on helping others so that I would not have to stop and focus on my own life. It's too painful to do that. It's much easier to help others then to stop and help myself.

In my first breakdown I couldn't do any of the things you listed...in fact I couldn't walk down the block alone. And I would have a hard time even walking with someone else.

Now almost 10years later having probably my 2nd one. I'm not able to work, but I can at least drive and somewhat function and take care of myself. I wouldn't be able to work.

I guess what I'm trying to point out is things could be worse. Just because at one point you could do x, y, and z doesn't mean next time you are having a "breakdown" it didn't get as bad yet because you are still able to do x, y, and z.

I hope I made some sense...lol and if I didn't I'm sorry...only trying to help .

Just don't be so rough on yourself...you're very supportive of others...that much I know and so do you. Try to do so for yourself .