It's been awhile since i posted here. I just started seeing a shrink. Today was my 2nd session. And, I couldn't tell her anything. How does one talk to someone they don't know about stuff they NEVER talk to anyone about ,ever?

So now, I'm supposed to write down whatever and I don't think i can even do that...and ordinarily, i love writing. I can't find the words to write what she wants or needs to hear/know.
She even suggested my bringing in some of my art work even after i told her i only have half started stuff. But I'm not doing that because that's private stuff and i don't and can't share it. And i'm sure she wouldn't be interested if it weren't her job to be attentive and pretend to be itnerested.

Ever since I was at my shrink's office, I've been restless, scatterbrained, and not feeling right. I'm not a crier and that's all i want to do. And i feel like I'm not even in my body which i know is totally ridiculous and impossible.

I don't know what to do. I just want to go back to being like i used to be and the way i used to feel.

I don't see how talking about whatever is supposed to help anything. I want it to help. But how can it when one cant even talk and say whatever it is that needs to be said ?

I just feel so lost and don't know what to do. Or i don't want to do what I should do because i know that it's just words and talk anyway.....