Hi JungleAnimal,

Congrats on your first steps towards recovery I too am in recovery from an ED. I was anorexic but have been in recovery for about 16 months. It can be difficult at times. I regained over 65 lbs when I went into recovery. It was sooooo hard. In the end however I realized that I am healthier this way then at my lowest weight. My husbnd also thinks I look much better. The longer you can maintain recovery the better it gets.

I occasionally return to old behaviours but quickly recognize them and correct them. Everydsy is a challenge but you need to take it one day at a time. I have to remind myself daily that I am healthier the way I am now. I know I have a distorted body image that makes this very difficult and I too think I am fat. However others don't see it that way. Taking life one day at a time instead of in larger chaunks of time makes it much easier to handle.

Take care.

insecurity