OK, last night was different.
My BF were in bed, headed toward sleep. Sometimes his system will talk amongst themselves as he dozes off. Sometimes they'll talk to me, too. He's been under a TON of stress lately between unemployment running out and no job yet and getting evicted because he can't keep up with rent. He's been handling it really well, but I know his system is stressed out. There's been a lot of conversation lately.

I heard a very deep voice that i didn't recognize say "It's time to come home" and Jonny answered "OK, I'm tired." I heard again "It's time to come home" and Jonathan answered "OK. Will I ever get to go back out?" (answer was yes).

Then the voice said "You. I don't know you. Who are you?"
And I answered "Me?"
and he said "You must be Kendyll. You love him."
"If I may ask, who are you?"
"I am the Core."
"The Core - The original?"
"Yes. The Original, the Beginning."
"So you're Jon before...?"
"Even Jon is only part of me. I am completely him, but he is only part of me. I am who was Before. I am the One. Jon is fragile - stand by him. Good night, Kendyll."
And with that he went to sleep.


I don't even know what I'm asking about. I guess I just want to talk to people who will listen. I can't tell anyone else about this stuff.
I guess I thought that the guy I met was the...main identity. I suppose he still is. The main interface with the world at any rate. But...does this sound vaguely familiar to anyone? Can anyone help me understand better? I don't even know what I don't know...I'm not scared at all. I just wish I understood more.

Best wishes and hugs to all of you. I still think y'all are so amazing for your strength and courage and I wish you all good things.