Hey you... check out Kudos, I left a post for you there.

But I thought I'd congratulate you here too...

Congrats on 3 months! That's a fantastic achievement, it really is.

It's hard because the urges get stronger when we get stronger. The way you once thought of coping isn't going to be the "main" thing on your mind anymore... at least not all the time. So your brain (and the addiction, because that's what SI is) freaks out - and it gets harder to deal. It's normal.

You're doing a good job thus far. Just take it one day at a time... there aren't any mistakes, you're not a failure if you fall ... you just get up to try again.

Letting go of something that's been a part of you for so long is hard... nobody always like change, even if it's for your benefit. Change is hard.

I know this sounds silly, but you can draw on your arms (or wherever you want) if it makes you feel any better to have markings there... I still do that sometimes. Highlighters, pens, markers... I doodle, I draw... sometimes I do dots (in RED)... people look at me like I've got a contagious disease. (lol) I write positive messages to myself sometimes... sometimes I draw happy faces, or hearts... you can still be a "canvas" of markings... but these ones aren't bad for your health.