(((((((((((((((( Sabby)))))))))))))))))

That is so true.And for the life of me, I tried so hard last night to bounce out of it, I tried to laugh, I tried and tried, but it wouldnt last. Everytime , I just kept crying , sometimes this God awful whaling cry. The kind you see in streets of war where mothers are in roads holding their children who have been victims of the war. The pain is still that real, that haunting. The losses too many and I still dont know why , why God wouldnt give me a child , a grandchild for my mother to call her own. She had so looked forward to this. I just wish I knew why , why my body couldnt handle bringing a child into this world . To give the love I still have for each on I lost to. I failed , I failed my children, I failed my mom, My husband. I need to get past this, I know i do, just not sure how .