My last session, I was talking to T about how H should call his T when he is having a tough day. T says 'just like I told you -- you are welcome to call anytime and leave a message.'

I don't like calling in between sessions, unless I actually need something. I don't know why -- I guess I feel a little pathetic, or that it is not important. But then, I really want to have the best relationship with T that I can, so I can have the best healing possible.

So, I did it. This morning I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed, dragging my heels, not sure why I'm feeling this yucky. (Because things are going pretty well, in an objective sense.) I called T, and just left a long rambling message.

*sigh*
Not sure if I feel any better. If anything now I'm nervous about what T might think about the message. I like getting feedback, and just leaving a message seems so powerless...I have no idea what T is thinking because I'm not hearing his voice or seeing him react to what I say.

Anyhow...Pinksoil...you helped inspire me since I just read your post about calling T.

*Breathe*
Here's hoping this helps in the long-term, because I don't understand at this moment how it will help.